2nd Half Glory

So I’m duly done and over with the mourning of my old self, since the time period that qualifies as the ‘best old self’ varies wildly. Physically it would be around 2002, when my bulimia (yes, yes, yes, future post I’m sure) had finally shaved all the unwanted pounds right away, and my ferocious dancing schedule…

Sad Sunday

There are times in life where your next move begins with words you speak loudly to yourself long before you have even a HOPE of believing them. Today has been a bad day. I’m mopey and I’m struggling with getting my blood sugar levels high enough to feel truly human. One of the ‘conditions’ I’m…

Service with a smile

I’ve been thinking about serving. “Serving”. I’ve been thinking about how that’s another beautiful concept that the world got its grubby little hands on and ruined with all the twisted convolutions we have laid on top of a truly simply, beautiful thing. Claire Huxtable, whom we all love and adore, (and who will never be…

Live the love

I think God has given me an interesting life for a reason. I may never fully understand all the whys and wherefores of every exciting thing I have lived through, but I know through to my core that everything I’m going through is very much for a reason. Some of them I get pretty quickly….

Face down your own face

My husband is a quiet voice when all the world is a storm. He whispers that I’ll be fine. And I hear him. And I believe him. He reminds me that sometimes there is more power in the stillness than in the uproar. There is a lot of uproar in my world right now. And…

The Unbearable Heaviness of Being

Sometimes there is nothing left to give. Some days, the urge to lay on the floor groaning softly, “You win, life, you win” overtakes us, and it is only the fear of what may be on the floor under your desk that keeps you upright, content instead to drape yourself overs its rickety wooden surface…

When your doctor sighs and says he’s sorry

When your doctor sighs and says he’s sorry… Then you have to know your appointment is not going to go as well as you had hoped. Yesterday when i woke up, I found that my entire right side was in agony. Added to that, I realised I could not move my right hand properly. I…

And one for courage

Okay, so already this took a lot of courage, choosing to blog right here and now, with all the things going on in my world. When i made the decision to do this blog-a-day madness, I figured it would mean digging deep and sharing things that would have otherwise moldered in the back of my…

Living “As If”

Once upon a time the words “as if” were irrevocably and exclusively linked to what remains a top ten movie fave Clueless. It was used only to express sick and horror at some gauche move or convo or outfit that our hero would never make. Stripes and plaid??? I mean as if!   But the…

Keep Calm and Keep on Keeping Calm

Yesterday while at the huge teachers table at the back of the staffroom, I found myself seated beside a group of science teachers who were going through some exam papers to standardize the answers. Standard procedure. And also science, so after about one quarter of a second I zoned out. There I sat merrily Facebooking marking,when…

Birthday Suit

Sooooo as it turns out, I’m full of crap. That’s part of the beauty and part of the bane of trying to be an open book. Everynow and then them old pages that were nice and stuck together crack apart to show you the gross dead bug it used to keep nice and hidden. Last…