Pregnancy is a Mutha #7

Thing 7 Relaxin- it’s not just for the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air, lemme tell you that right now. Relaxin is that hormone that tells your body to get ready for the baby. Your pelvis starts to loosen and widen, your hip muscles and all that begin to just get real loose-like. Aww, yay for the…

Dear Jude: wise things

Dear Jude, sometimes I will share with you my wise things that will become your wise things only when you sit trying to figure out how to tell your own first child that there are lessons that burn, lessons that heal; lessons that must be discovered personally and still others best learned from secondhand safety;…

Dear Jude: so much to say

Dear Jude, sometimes a thought isn’t enough and for this there are songs. Sometimes a wish isn’t enough and for this there are prayers. Sometimes a status isn’t enough. And for this, there is posting on my website 🙂

Dear Jude: 4 months

Dear Jude, 16 weeks ago today they placed you in my arms. But long before my arms held you, my body did. Long before my arms knew you, my heart did. Long before my arms wrapped themselves around you, my love did. Happy four monthday, my yummylovejoy. Only time could truly tell you how much…

Dear Jude: so unprepared for Day 2

Dear Jude, in spending a hard week psyching myself up for Day 1 of work, I totally forgot to psych myself up for Day 2 and all the others behind. How is it possible that today feels worse than yesterday?

Dear Jude: 1st day away :-(

Dear Jude, on mommy’s first day away I came back exactly at lunch o’clock to feed you and to get some cuddles. Oh my YummyloveJoy, I’m missing you more than I could have ever anticipated! But Daddy’s left a beautiful bouquet on mommy’s desk at work. Take note, my darling: flowers are a wonderful way to say…

Pregnancy is a Mutha #6

Thing 6 Hot flashes are not just for the menopausal. It is also for the REALLY lucky preggos. I thought I was going crazy when I noticed myself getting unreasonably hot. Now you may say “But you live in Jamaica”. To which I might reply, “Yes, but when you’re in a room with the AC…

Dear Jude: no more all-day mommy :-(

Dear Jude, this is my last night as your “all day mommy”. My head knows women have done this before- walked out the door, sat at desks, earned paychecks, etc. but my heart remains unconvinced. I at once want you to save all your growing for when I’m home but yet also to be spectacular…

Pregnancy is a Mutha #5

Thing 5 Long before your gut actually starts to show (and we’re going to just not count the mean people who guess that you’re 3 months further than you are), clothes stop fitting. They just plain stop fitting. Sometimes it’s gradual, with the zipper giving you a bit more backchat each time til it just…

Dear Jude: work=why???

Dear Jude, somehow and some way I must figure out how to convince myself that going back to work does not equal abandoning you, that there are milestones I’ll still get to share and that you won’t turn out to have been just a beautiful dream my job wakes me up from. That when I…